Something feels different these days…I feel like I’m going through another shift in this life.

Lately, I’ve been cast into a sea of chaos whirl-pooling around me. I am in the center of it, and though it doesn’t touch me directly (for the most part), it keeps thrashing against those close to me. I know what happens to them isn’t my fault, but in some way it feels like it is.

I sense I’m being tested in a way. I need to be able to handle and deal with everything around me for some reason. And I feel the growth happening inside me, despite the exhaustion and the desire to relent my role in these situations.

I’m trying to listen more; listen closer. Those guiding me, after a time of quietly sitting off to the side while they wait for the next moment in my journey for them to act again, are finally standing up and stretching their limbs, getting ready to walk with me once more. I feel them stirring around me, preparing for something. Preparing me.

Whatever is to happen, hasn’t yet. Whatever final growth this is to produce in me hasn’t been completely ingrained into my being. Funnily enough, I feel him again, too. The one I write about sometimes – the one I see in my intuitive glances of my future. Our connection was quiet for a while, but has recently re-sparked and carried on as if no time has passed without each other.

I imagine I’ll have much more to write about when those things do happen, and though I don’t know yet what this is all preparing me for, I can feel it coming. The only thing for me to do now is to wait patiently and hold onto this newfound level of strength and confidence I’ve been given, because something tells me that I’ll need it soon…