I need you to stop.

I need you to stop being exactly

what I’ve always dreamed of.

I need you to stop being so kind and thoughtful

of those around you.

I need you to stop having that beautiful smile that

always forces one on my face too.

I need your happiness to not be so contagious,

warming my heart even on my worst days.

I need your laugh to not invade my entire being with pure, unfiltered joy.

I need you to stop being so damn considerate all the time,

always doing things for others even at the expense of taking care of yourself.

I need you to not look at me with those eyes; those radiant, warm eyes

that feel like the first sip of a cup of coffee on a chilly fall morning.

The way they stare intently focused on me when I speak makes my brain fuzzy

and the words leave my mind before I’m able to finish my thought.

The way they squint and wrinkle from your joy causes me to get lost in them,

searching for them whenever we’re in the same room.

I need you stop using yourself as a barricade protecting those you love from

the cruelness of this world.

I need you to stop shying away when I tell you how beautiful you are,

especially without a single product applied to your skin.

You, the most beautiful person I will ever get the chance to meet,

pain me with the way you can’t see that for yourself.

I need you to see how absolutely amazing you are;

how unreal it is that someone like you could even exist.

I need you to know how unbelievable lucky I feel to even be alive

in the same timeframe as you.

I need you to know how much I admire you for everything you’ve sacrificed

not just for yourself but for those around you.

I know it was hard; I know it hurt.

I know it was lonely and unrelenting and at times, unbearable.

I know there were so many times you wanted to give up.

But please know, I’m so glad you didn’t.

Am I’m so proud of you, no matter how little I deserve to feel that,

I am so proud of you.

I need you to understand that no one could be a better leader.

No one could be a better friend.

No one could be a better role model.

No one deserves to be where you are now more than you do,

so stop saying that you don’t.

No one will ever come close to being like you because you are the most unselfish

the most loving, thoughtful, talented, intuitive, mindful, intelligent and beautiful person

I will ever know.

And I need you to stop it.

Because I can’t stop thinking about you.

I need you stop because you won’t leave my head.

I need you to stop because I can’t keep looking at that gorgeous face,

knowing the kind and gentle person you are, hearing that life-giving laugh,

seeing those alluring, brown eyes and not think about how every day

I want to be the reason you smile.

I want to make you laugh.

I want to catch your eyes in a room full of beautiful people.

I want to feel your skin under my fingers

and set your body alight with desire.

I want to rub your shoulders on a hard day,

and feel the tension melt away under my fingertips.

I want to feel you pull me closer in the night when we’ve drifted too far.

I want to be your safe place where you share the burdens you’re tired

of carrying alone.

I want to tell you everything about me, until I’m out of breath.

Until there’s not a corner of my soul I didn’t invite you into.

I want you to do the same for me.

I need those physical touches from you throughout the day

that let me know I’m on your mind.

I want the permission to wrap my arms around you whenever I feel like.

I want you to notice the little things about me and fall deeper in love

every time you see them surface.

I want to be as generous and kind-hearted as you.

I want to be that kind of person someone admires;

I want to be someone you admire.

And this is why I need you to stop

because you’ve made me fall hopelessly, madly in love with you

and I need to try to save myself before I fall even further.

I need you to stop because you deserve someone more,

and I just can’t seem to let you go.

I need to stop because you’ve probably already found her –

The one you’re meant to love, and I bet you’re happy together.

I need to stop because this is becoming too much.

I need to stop because I need to move on from you, if that’s possible.

I at least need to try – That seems reasonable to do.

But I don’t want to.

I want you.

And for this reason, I need you stop.

Stop warming my heart with your kind gestures.

Stop making me laugh and smile from the smallest things.

Stop staring at me as if I’m the only person in this room worth talking to.

Stop being so generous and undeniably, unmistakably goddamn handsome.

Stop reminding me every day that you’re all I’ve ever wanted

because I just don’t stand a chance.

Stop being the exact thing I told myself that couldn’t be real, because how am I

supposed to not compare everyone else to you?

I need you to stop making me fall deeper in love with you every day,

because how am I ever supposed to move on, even if I wanted to?